Here again..Alone

Some much has changed in such a short period of time. My baby brother has come to live with us, due to issues with our step-mom. My dear husband is gone again..this time for two months. I am getting use to him being gone so much..not that I like it. I can't wait for 2010 when he can finally leave this life behind. The kids have been pretty good so far. My daughter has had her days...days where I can't imagine if I acted like this how I made it thus far in life! So I guess terrible twos do hold strong..though I think it should be called the curious twos. She doesn't know better she just wants to see what happens with you put olive oil all over the couch..or if you can finger paint with your poop..just a couple of the things she has been trying to figure out! Being a mom isn't for the weak that is for sure...especially a single mom. That is how I feel now..most of the time..single. My husband and I exists in a dating world...we see each other in between diapers..bathes..rotations..and formations. How do you take time for your marriage with life going on around you? Do you have to just sit down with the calendar and reserve life to make your union work? Sometimes I feel we are going to fail..like we don't devote the time and effort into our lives as a pair...just our lives as a Mom..Dad..and Soldier. Love can suffer..just hopefully the wounds ours is taking are superficial.