Whirlwind of thoughts

Here I sit again..lonely and cold :) My husband is in the field again today....in a way I welcome the quiet, in a way I loathe it. I hate being alone with all the thoughts that enter my head. Things that I can't change but wish I could...things that have no real place in my life...so I just sit here and think. Just a glimpse into the random thoughts of mine....Yesterday we got into a fight about something as simple as a bank card..what next? Will it always be this way? Is love really enough to mend all wounds? Is my love enough for him to forget? Will I ever be enough?...Sad really when I think that I always put myself down. I love my husband more than I have ever loved a man in my life, but sometimes I wonder if he loves me with the same unconditional, strength. I hate showing my weaknesses so forgive me for that.